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slipjig3The problem with the "Current Mood" slot in LJ is that, sometimes, it's entirely too teeny to encompass the whole kettle of soup that I'm feeling...
I am...
...contented. Over the past handful of weeks, I have had some of the most wonderful contact with some of the most wonderful people I've encountered in many a year. I'll tell you, between revisiting my friends of old in Champaign and making countless new friends via LJ & the dreaded Instant Message Addiction, I am truly blessed, and truly loved. Thank you, thank you, and love to you all. And to those of you I've been growing acquainted with in the very recentness, I am so glad to have you join me in this adventure. I look forward to knowing you forever.
...tired. One unfortunate side effect of the dreaded Instant Message Addiction (aside from carpal tunnel) is that my sleep schedule has gone pretty decidedly fooblitzky. I mean, yes, when I was a strapping college buck, I could stay up til 2 a.m. every night of the week and live to tell the tale, but back then I didn't have wee ones demanding my attention at 6:30 in the expletive-deleted morning. Moderation is probably the way to go, but, well, my friends are out there, y'know?
...nervous. Kristi and I have our first meeting with the lawyer this Thursday, regarding...well, regarding. It's not going to go badly, I am aware, since we've already worked out the main game plan for the next few years and nothing's in dispute, but this is still not the sort of appointment you go skipping off to. I have no illusions that the marriage is anything but over; that clarity, however, doesn't mean that I want to be reminded of it. Wish us luck.
...horny. This kicked in a few weeks ago, as part of what![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
magnifelyn identified as an LJ-wide wave of hormones. The thing is, it didn't go away. And it's popping up at the most bewildering times, like when I'm at work, or in the car, or the like. And it's not that it's a bad thing (quite the contrary, thank you very much), but it's a bit disconcerting at times, in a good way. Part of it stems from a new outlook on my part: for the first time, I'm allowing myself to flirt openly, without guilt or self-censorship (or shame, at times), and having an utter blast doing it. Part of it is a sudden interest in writing erotica again, which is both cause and symptom in this instance. And part of it's just that, well, people are...interesting. *shy grin* Yes, sir, it's an awfully pretty world out there, isn't it?
...down. It's not a terribly serious down-state, truth be told; I don't yet look like Mr. Sad Paxil Egg hiding under a rock. It's just the sum total of all of the above, and my system maxing out for a bit. It struck me while I was at work, which just exacerbated the situation, because I couldn't really do anything about it. Not at the level of my Kristi-February panic attacks (those were not pretty; y'know, the kind where I start pulling out my hair and howling, "I've got to get OUT OF HERE!"), but not exactly something that I had any desire to endure today.
...giddy. I got in the mail a promised CD mix from the impossibly-lovely-and-I-have-the-pictures-to-prove-itrafaela today! *happy dance* Totally flipped the down-mode on its ear. I'm listening to it right now, and it's delicious. (And now I know what my name looks like in Hebrew! O frabjous day!)
...contemplative. I'm still trying to decide whether or not to participate in NaNoWriMo this year. That's going to be its own entry, methinks.
...excited. I have things to look forward to, and wild and wondrous things indeed. That hasn't happened to me in a long while. I hope I can be patient...
...grateful. To all of you. Thank you all again. You help make life good. *hugs all around*
I am...
...contented. Over the past handful of weeks, I have had some of the most wonderful contact with some of the most wonderful people I've encountered in many a year. I'll tell you, between revisiting my friends of old in Champaign and making countless new friends via LJ & the dreaded Instant Message Addiction, I am truly blessed, and truly loved. Thank you, thank you, and love to you all. And to those of you I've been growing acquainted with in the very recentness, I am so glad to have you join me in this adventure. I look forward to knowing you forever.
...tired. One unfortunate side effect of the dreaded Instant Message Addiction (aside from carpal tunnel) is that my sleep schedule has gone pretty decidedly fooblitzky. I mean, yes, when I was a strapping college buck, I could stay up til 2 a.m. every night of the week and live to tell the tale, but back then I didn't have wee ones demanding my attention at 6:30 in the expletive-deleted morning. Moderation is probably the way to go, but, well, my friends are out there, y'know?
...nervous. Kristi and I have our first meeting with the lawyer this Thursday, regarding...well, regarding. It's not going to go badly, I am aware, since we've already worked out the main game plan for the next few years and nothing's in dispute, but this is still not the sort of appointment you go skipping off to. I have no illusions that the marriage is anything but over; that clarity, however, doesn't mean that I want to be reminded of it. Wish us luck.
...horny. This kicked in a few weeks ago, as part of what
magnifelyn identified as an LJ-wide wave of hormones. The thing is, it didn't go away. And it's popping up at the most bewildering times, like when I'm at work, or in the car, or the like. And it's not that it's a bad thing (quite the contrary, thank you very much), but it's a bit disconcerting at times, in a good way. Part of it stems from a new outlook on my part: for the first time, I'm allowing myself to flirt openly, without guilt or self-censorship (or shame, at times), and having an utter blast doing it. Part of it is a sudden interest in writing erotica again, which is both cause and symptom in this instance. And part of it's just that, well, people are...interesting. *shy grin* Yes, sir, it's an awfully pretty world out there, isn't it?...down. It's not a terribly serious down-state, truth be told; I don't yet look like Mr. Sad Paxil Egg hiding under a rock. It's just the sum total of all of the above, and my system maxing out for a bit. It struck me while I was at work, which just exacerbated the situation, because I couldn't really do anything about it. Not at the level of my Kristi-February panic attacks (those were not pretty; y'know, the kind where I start pulling out my hair and howling, "I've got to get OUT OF HERE!"), but not exactly something that I had any desire to endure today.
...giddy. I got in the mail a promised CD mix from the impossibly-lovely-and-I-have-the-pictures-to-prove-it
rafaela today! *happy dance* Totally flipped the down-mode on its ear. I'm listening to it right now, and it's delicious. (And now I know what my name looks like in Hebrew! O frabjous day!)...contemplative. I'm still trying to decide whether or not to participate in NaNoWriMo this year. That's going to be its own entry, methinks.
...excited. I have things to look forward to, and wild and wondrous things indeed. That hasn't happened to me in a long while. I hope I can be patient...
...grateful. To all of you. Thank you all again. You help make life good. *hugs all around*
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Date: 2003-10-20 08:35 pm (UTC)*blush*
Thank you all again.
No, thank you.
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Date: 2003-10-21 05:33 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2003-10-20 09:38 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2003-10-21 05:33 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2003-10-20 11:08 pm (UTC)So do you. Remember that.
And Adam looking like Mr. Sad Paxil Egg = not good. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help prevent that.
:)
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Date: 2003-10-21 05:36 am (UTC)And no, not anywhere near Sad
PaxilZoloft Egg levels right now, and hopefully not in the foreseeable future. The down-mode seems to have been an aberration, thank goodness. But I appreciate it. Truth be told, the "anything you can do"? You're doing it. *grin*(no subject)
Date: 2003-10-21 03:10 am (UTC)*waves* Hey! *heads back to bed*
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Date: 2003-10-21 05:38 am (UTC)And that going back to bed things sounds bloody good right now... *shuffles off*
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Date: 2003-10-21 04:45 am (UTC)Ohoho, trust me, it hasn't gone away from me, either!
my libido is not a flash of fire; it's a long, slow burn.
Moods like this stick around for a very long time.
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Date: 2003-10-21 05:38 am (UTC)