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Arisia ended two days ago, which is my cue to dither about procrastinating on my recap post, and then end up procrastinating anyway. Back in The Day, when I'd managed to get an Arisia post out at all, it would have been a cleverly formatted multi-part extravaganza, laying out the highlights like I was assembling a YouTube documentary series on the topic. This year, though, seemed to be the Arisia that defied storytelling—not in a bad way, mind, but in a way that put the good things in the "vibe" column rather than the "event" column. A little time in the Gaming Room, a little time in the Dealers Room, and an arse-ton of time in the lobby watching the glass elevators rise and fall. Not exactly swashbuckling, but it was all centered around connection and contact, which was precisely what I needed on a thousand different levels. This is the only con I regularly attend because it's the one con where I know I'll know dozens of folks and get in all the hugs and conversations I need to make it through the long dark teatime of the January soul.

If there was a theme at all in play, it turned out to be music, and the making and appreciation thereof. Three things:

1) Blessedly, [personal profile] cluegirl was in attendance after missing a year, so we worked in an hour of loose-elbowed practice in her hotel room, where we discovered that only getting together twice in five years means a lot of going wide-eyed in the middle of the second verse because what the honking feck are the words, I know I used to know the damn chords, please gods tell me we have this written them down somewhere. Moral of the story: I need to do this more often.

2) There is an Arisia tradition (by which I mean we've done it two years in a row so now it's a tradition) of getting together with [personal profile] marnen and not-on-DW Dybbuk, both of them on fiddle and me on guitar, and converging at some lobby adjacency and improvising whatever instrumental jams leap out of us until my fingers fall off or hotel staff shut us down, whichever comes first. This year we did it both Saturday and Sunday nights, commandeering an area known as the Crow's Nest off the third floor just above the restaurant, an area that had a door leading to a balcony that mildly drunk congoers kept accessing to go watch the snowstorm blow across the Charles River. (Does this help keep stringed instruments in tune? No. No, it does not.) It was truly a blast, M and D are great jam partners, and had my lack of fingertips calluses not called a halt I'd have gladly kept going. Moral of the story: I need to do this more often.

3) I stuck my head in at the dance party on Saturday, as I sometimes do, only this time I let myself get talked away from the cowering wall and onto the dance floor. That's rare. I wasn't going to dance because I felt awkward and self-conscious, but I was reminded that the cure for that is dancing. She was right. Moral of the story: I need to do this more often.

There's an entry to be written about a crisis of faith I've been dealing with where my music is concerned, but this isn't that entry, and I have to be up early, and whatever other excuse I can come up with not to talk about it now. Suffice it to say, however, that the weekend reminded me in no uncertain terms that yes, I need to do this more often.

To everyone I saw there: thank you. It was what I needed.
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Not even going to bother numbering the Things, just gonna type until my job makes me resume working:

==> Woke up at stupid o'clock in the morning with a random leg cramp so bad that my howling woke up [personal profile] hypnagogie. It eventually calmed down and we both fell asleep again, but it's two days gone and still sore, although I can finally walk without shambling like a grue. Onward with the Advil and electrolytes.

==> I'm somehow done with Christmas shopping, more or less? Could y'all peek out your windows and see if there's like a plague of locusts or some such? 'Cause that shizz doesn't happen, like, ever.

==> Every year we make a point of watching every Oscar nominated movie in above-the-line categories (picture, director, acting, writing). Given how well The Substance is faring in preliminary awards contention, there's a good chance I'm going to find out which is stronger: my aversion to body horror, or my obsessive completionism. I suspect it's the latter. Hoo boy.

==> Addendum to the above: I did make it through Titane and a few other notables, so I'll probably be okay? Also, it's not like we never bail out of Oscar movies partway, so there is an escape valve. We made it 45 minutes into Blonde before the question of "Why are they subjecting us to this?" morphed into "Wait, why are we subjecting us to this?" and flipped to QI reruns.

I just bit my lip when I sneezed, so the Universe is telling me to wind this up. How's everyone doing?
slipjig3: (gashlycrumb ernest)
A handy little timeline explaining recent events:

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<--–––––––- when I would prefer to hear about an E. coli-related recall of organic carrots
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– <--making dilled carrots with butter with dinner
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<--–––––––- when I actually heard about an E. coli-related recall of organic carrots
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– <--eating dilled carrots with butter with dinner
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<--–––––––- when it would have been much worse to hear about an E. coli-related recall of organic carrots
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And while we're doing carrot recall-related DW charts:

Possible Reasons for Recent GI Distress

1) E. coli from nibbling a slice of carrot during meal prep

Probable Reasons for Recent GI Distress

1) eating like a 12-year-old left alone for the evening

Thus concludes our PowerPoint presentation. Comment cards can be found near the crudité platter in the lobby.
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Trotting out the old check-in poll from the LJ days, because if you're going to reinstate old blogging habits, might as well reinstate them all:

Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: Just the Poll Creator, participants: 10

How are you doing right now?

Right now, what is your greatest challenge?

Right now, what is your greatest joy?

Tell me something. Anything.

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The whole "five things make a post" concept is as timeworn as movie theater carpeting, but posting is a habit that I'm still working on redeveloping and long-form anything still feels like a bridge too far, so here we go:

1) Achievement unlocked: I shared a childhood story that made my therapist go, "What the fuck...?!" (Not quite but almost verbatim.) She was furious on behalf of my younger self, which was gratifying but made me stop and wonder why I hadn't been furious until relatively recently, so I guess we have a Thing to talk about next week.

2) I seem to be back on the Book of Face, which I'm not entirely pleased about, but I did nuke my Xitter account from orbit, so I've got that going for me. (I do have an occasionally-used Bluesky account, user name slipjig, if'n y'all are over in those parts.)

3) We sometimes use a hot water bottle in bed on chilly nights, which we abbreviate to a "HoWaBo," which is why, when [personal profile] hypnagogie requested this evening that I prepare said HoWaBo, I replied that I needed to find the WaBo so I could make it Ho.

4) I don't buy Christmas anything until after Thanksgiving on general principle, but fuck principles when there are white fudge Oreos.

5) I was going to tell a story from Sunday here, but I'm realizing that it's too long for the five-things format, so remind me to circle back around to the crazy dude in the coffeehouse carrying around a 1968 Archie and Jughead comic and a used Barbra Streisand LP.

Also, I sprung for a paid account, so I've got my full set of icons back. Woo.

Page one

Nov. 7th, 2024 06:53 pm
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Yesterday, I couldn't. Could. Not.

To that end, I called in sick from work, and hung a GONE FISHIN' shingle on my Facebook that read, "Unplugging for an undetermined period of time. We'll catch up on the flip side. Take care of yourselves, loves." I was back at work this morning. I was not back on Facebook.

Social media is a concept with an asterisk welded on. It operates under the idea that it's bringing us together, but it does so in the way a pep rally brings us together: bright banners and loud noises and camaraderie, with no room to ask the things we need to ask or say what needs saying. As someone whose friends are all scattered and far, I'm standing here watching the world on fire and wanting to call them, but completely unable to handle the static on the phone line. Facebook is an exposed nerve. BlueSky is an echo chamber of all the things I'm trying to keep out of my skull. Instagram is a decent salve if I skip to the language nerds and owl videos and snapshots of this morning's teacup, but not much more.

I know I'm not saying anything new. What I mean to say is that I need this place. Dear gods, do I need this place, if only because there is literally no other place on the internet where I could have typed the preceding three paragraphs and hit "POST". Everywhere that's not DW feels as safe as a malfunctioning soldering iron.

Today I can't. Can. Not. But I need to start trying. We'll call this page one.

Hi.
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Mrff. Hard forcing myself to engage online lately. Last week I can blame on project brain (two YouTube videos posted in less than a week, which never happens), but this week I can only chalk up to a combination of inertia and lack of an emotional gas pedal. I did get some good in-person interactions, heading to Boston to hang with [personal profile] felisdemens et al (man, I've forgotten frickin' everybody's username). A wonderful time had with folks I'd not seen in a while, but after an evening of full-bore large-group socializing on Friday I got as far as lunchtime on Saturday before I was requesting living room squatting with as few expectations as possible. Very much worth it. Friday had a fire pit.

Yesterday's adventure was a drive 35 minutes away for an MRI, because no week is complete without sticking your head in a dishwasher and trying not to anxiety-twitch. This was at the request of the neurologist my GP sent me to after I asked about the head-spinny events that have picked up again. Quick recap: I sometimes experience random dizziness, ranging from lightheadedness to Tilt-a-Whirl level, "Could someone please help me to the bedroom to lie down because I'm going to hit the door frame if I try it solo?" type of attacks. These are nothing new, but they've been gaining frequency; going theory is that they're probably anxiety-related (see above agoraphobia) but I made an appointment Just In Case. My GP (or rather, the doctor filling in until my relocated GP has been replaced) checked me out, said it's probably anxiety but ordered blood work and a neuro consult Just In Case. Blood work was fine; neuro gave me the ol' stand-on-one-leg-and-touch-your-nose business, said that he couldn't see any major issues and it's probably anxiety but ordered an MRI Just In Case. Fun.

If you're asking, yes, I'm a fight-or-flight claustrophobe most of the time, but I'd had an MRI before and know the drill: breathe, keep your eyes shut, think of England. Also, [personal profile] hypnagogie offered to come with for moral support and also to drive because of the Ativan I took in advance. Things went smoothly enough, although there were a lot fewer check-ins from the lab techs as we went along, which meant rather more jump scares than I want in a medical procedure. The variety of skull-rattling rhythmic machine noises was diverse and unpredictable, though, so it helped to imagine I was back on [personal profile] felisdemens's couch listening to a lightly-baked German EDM DJ's Twitch stream. We should hear back by tomorrow, assuming all goes well, which I have no reason to believe it won't.

It's garbage night. I should take out the recycling. I do not feel any particular hankering to do so.
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Random stuff, in the order that they occur to me:

1) The Rolling Stone 500 Albums listening project is off to a good start: Ask Rufus by Rufus with Chaka Khan, Los Angeles by X, Nevermind by Nirvana (the only one here I'd listened to in full before now), The Clash self-titled, Dónde Están los Ladrones by Shakira, and Mama's Gun by Erykah Badu, in that order. Six albums, six thumbs up. Since they're supposed to be in random order, I've been having [personal profile] hypnagogie pull the index cards. I told her she's been good luck so far; she says, "Or is it because you love music?" Since she just pulled Willy and the Poor Boys by Creedence Clearwater Revival, I'm sticking with the good luck theory. (For now, anyway. Drake could turn up aaaaany second now.)

2) I finally posted a new YouTube video after a more-than-two-month silence, having finally recovered sufficiently from the dag-flabberin' click-and-drag NIGHTMARE I'd set for myself on the previous one. I'm still trying to get up the gumption to put myself back on camera, but I did settle for doing a voiceover, which is plenty vulnerable and gives me ample opportunity to cuss about my lack of decent gear. The vid has been received well—apparently people like it better when you don't smack them with a 45-minute clip montage, go figure.

3) True to form, I've already started the next video. Hi, I'm Adam.

4) I picked up some vanilla ice cream and blood orange Sanpellegrino to make a concoction I whipped up when we had COVID last year and were spending our time mainlining Murder She Wrote reruns and praying for morphine. Simple enough recipe: vanilla ice cream, blood orange Sanpellegrino, blender, pour, drink. Very comforting when you're spiking a temperature. We called it the "Fever Dreamsicle" mainly because [personal profile] hypnagogie wouldn't let me call it "Et Tu, Fruté". (I haven't made it yet this week, because I can't be arsed to haul out the blender.)

5) To be clear: even if I'm not replying, I'm reading. I'm pleased to be shown this part of your life.
slipjig3: (rabbit guitarist)
Entering this for the record:

The Project
Listen to every album in the Rolling Stone 500 Greatest Albums of All Time list. Ai yi yi.

The Background
I took a stab at this once before, years ago, when I was trapped in a cubicle, bored off my bustle, and desperate for distraction. That, sadly, was a half-assed stab at best, and the attempt beached itself rather quickly after my job requirements and attention span both drifted. I return to it with renewed vigor, bolstered by recent reading and an obsessive deep-dive into Abigail Devoe's YouTube channel.

The Reasons
1) Fun
2) Filling in major gaps in my own cultural history
3) Shaking up my stagnating listening habits
4) Giving artists and genres I dislike a fair shot, with hopes of gaining appreciation
5) Self-betterment (more on that in a bit)
6) Because I can

The List
Yes, the Rolling Stone list is controversial and problematic with a generous helping of "...I'm sorry, what now?" but I'm going with it because it casts such a wide net—everything from Billie Holiday to Nine Inch Nails to Merle Haggard to My Chemical Romance to Mobb Deep to Earth, Wind & Fire to James Taylor to John Coltrane to Metallica to Taylor Swift to gods know what else. As an ending point, open to criticism; as a starting point, it'll do fine. I'll be using the 2020 version of the list, i.e. the last time they did a full survey, but I'll also throw in the nine or so titles they added for the 2023 "revision" (and hoo boy, do I have a few words on that nonsense).

The Preparations
Because this is me, I started by cobbling together a massive spreadsheet, then decided I also needed a massive stack of index cards to go with it. If it's worth engineering, it's worth over-engineering. Also, it keeps the voices away.

The Rules
1) Every album must be listened to in its entirety, preferably in one sitting. Even if it's an album I've heard a hundred times. Even if it's an album I've been purposefully avoiding for decades (especially if I've been avoiding it).

2) Albums will be selected in a random order. Hence the index cards. One of the problems I ran into the first time around is that I was going in list order, and when I ran into something I wasn't enthusiastic about I suddenly found I had Something Important to Do Right Now. So, new plan: commit to listening, then randomly select what I'll be listening to, no substitutions allowed.

3) No multitasking—every album will be given full attention. This here's the self-betterment part: I'm using this as a method to force myself away from the flippin' screen and take some meditative time, preferably outside, definitely with good headphones. Feeling the need for that right now.

4) No turning this into web content. This one might not stick, but I'm afraid that if I try to make this into a video series or a new blog or some such it's going to become yet another Thing that I feel guilty about not finishing. So for now, I'm keeping it for me. My output will be limited to the index cards: a star rating, a few lines of commentary, a few choice tracks, and that's it. I might very well change my mind, because in truth it would make a good something-or-other, but I can't finish the video projects and the music blog I already have, and to review, this is five hundred albums.

The Beginning
I'll start as soon as I'm done setting up the index cards, which should be today. Wish me luck.

I welcome input! And also Advil. Plenty of Advil.
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This past weekend marked the return of the big annual air show at the local executive airport (read: airport that the common unwashed rabble don't get to use), and I think I speak for the majority of us townies when I say I'd like to kick the organizers someplace sensitive. There's plenty of ground-level come-look-at-the-cool-planes that sounds like fun, especially for families with kids, but the issue is that the headliners this year were the Air Force Thunderbirds. A big draw and a big get, to be sure, so they were given the clearance to arrive early to rehearse, and then had multiple performances over several days. Fun!

Except.

When I say it's the local airport, I mean way local. I mean we drive past the airfield daily. I mean said airfield is on Bath Road, and some weekends we walk to Bath Road. Jets, however, don't have a concept for the term "local". Jets need space to operate, especially if they're rehearsing flight formations, and the space they operate is the entire surrounding space, i.e. right over every house and business in town. Back when I lived in Glens Falls, we had the balloon festival, which meant occasionally looking up and going, "Oh hey look, hot air balloons!" Much less fun is having naps interrupted by jet engine screech, with no recourse other than stomping onto the porch in your skivvies and impotently shouting "PIPE DOWN, MAVERICK, WE GOT IT THE FIRST TIME".

And if it were just about inconvenience, I'd only be grumbling a little. That kind of inconvenience is the price of living in a populated are, the kind that comes with parades and street fairs and beet festivals and whatever else your town boosters like to do. But I'd like you to take a moment to think about how veterans with PTSD react to fireworks displays, and just imagine subjecting them to repeated jet fighter flybys like a nonconsensual pro-am restaging of Top Gun directly above their backyard that lasts for four days. The point I lose my patience is the point where inconvenience tips over into hazard. That point is somewhere behind us.

On the other hand, I got to watch a plane do a bank-and-roll maneuver over the Hannaford parking lot without having to pay the $60 admission price. That was kinda cool.
slipjig3: (homesick blues)
1) Thing I didn't mention from the weekend is that I had my first ride in a Tesla, which...okay, look, I reeeeally wanted to hate it, to reassure myself with the meh of it all while thumbing my upturned nose at the Muskrat, but oh. my. god, is that a great car. It runs like silk on skin. It beeps at you when the light turns green. IT HAS A FRUNK. I didn't know I needed a frunk. I kinda need a frunk.

2) One of these days we're going to get up early enough for a morning walk and it will not, in fact, be raining.

3) Video production procrastination continues apace! [pause for applause] I did manage to write some voice-over copy while stuck at the office, and took a moment today to defibrillate the channel's social media accounts. That totally counts! Taking credit! Preening now!

4) And pardon me while I bury the lede, but one nice thing about creative procrastination is all the other things you get done: you know that novel that's been in the editing process for over a decade now?
EDITING.
IS.
FUCKING.
DONE.
This deserves a full post on its own, and it's going to get one because I'm going to need whoa-yikes quantities of help, but for now it feels...good? I think? Scary? Because Jesus on a moped, now what?
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This morning it's the good tired, the kind that results from entertaining out-of-state visitors for the weekend. Justin and Carly are online friends that [personal profile] hypnagogie made through her work with EFT couples therapy, and they stopped with us for a few days as the eastern terminus of a long road trip. Wonderful people, who we clicked with in that way you hope long-distance chat friends will click when you finally get to meet them. This meant several days engaging in the time-honored activity of Doing the Touristy Things We Don't Normally Do Because We Live Here So Why Bother, which was even better since we didn't really know what the touristy things even are. Spoiler: We do now.

Friday: Guests arrived in late afternoon and were plied with homemade pork chops forestière and Manhattans before crashing in the guest room/gym/YouTube studio/library/etc. (read: tiny room for all the stuff we have no space for elsewhere).

Saturday: Ceremonial trip to Dog Bar Jim's, the hippy ramshackle coffeehouse that is our standard Saturday morning haunt, followed by the grand walking tour of Brunswick, followed closely by them checking into their inn and everyone basically passing out for a few hours. We reconvened for dinner at Noble Kitchen, which did not disappoint. I forget what I ordered, but it was amazing, and the sticky toffee pudding for dessert tried its squishy damnedest to murder us from the serotonin centers down.

Sunday: Proof that sometimes the best-laid plans of mice and men need to be shot down for the greater good. After an exemplary diner breakfast where we actually got a table without waiting (it helps when the lunatics you're meeting with got up at like 4:30 to go hiking), the plan was to hit a beach, any beach. Now, in Maine, the word "beach" usually requires a set of air quotes around it, because there's more rocks than sand and you're certainly not going to risk hypothermia for a brisk dip in the North Atlantic. But Justin and Carly wanted view more than sun-bake, so we did a little hunt-and-peck to find the best choice. Attempt #1 was right in town, but it was low-tide marsh-skanky so we bailed to try our next option, Popham Beach. This one is a legit beach with sand and everything, but the side trip meant we got there just as they were putting out the "PARKING LOT FULL" barricade. Thanks, gods of hubris.

So. Undeterred and in a good mood, we kept going down the road to see if there was maybe some overflow parking, and that's how we found the little round lot next to a pier, a stunning view of the mouth of the Kennebec, and oh yeah, the ruins of a Civil War-era fort. This would be Fort Popham, one of those touristy things we didn't know about and absolutely the coolest thing we could have randomly found that day. Most of the fort is still standing, with cannon windows still intact, and we basically had free rein to explore both stories of the thing, as well as the third-floor observation turret with a spiral staircase to the top. "Free rein" included at least one interior room where there was literally no light, and no signs warning us to stay out or anything, so we went poking in with phone lights unhindered. Justin and Carly, braver than me, stayed in there for a bit with flashlights off, and said they couldn't see each other even when they were close enough to hold hands. A classic "eaten by a grue" scenario.

Me: [warily] You guys okay in there?
Them: Yep, we're fine!
Me: THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT A MIMIC WOULD SAY.

And yes, there was a beach, just off the far end of the main one but separated by a section of rocks that we had to scale down a bit which meant we had a much smaller crowd to contend with. We'd brought fruit and snacks, so aside from one toe-numbing wade into the waves we just sat on our blankets in the sand and appreciated the everything. A seal was spotted not more than 60 yards away, and a crab came up to introduce themselves during the ankle dip. From there, another nap crash, and then they treated us to seafood in South Portland because Carly was not going to leave Maine without at least one lobster in her. We got a table on the waterfront overlooking the city, and the most perfect cinematography-level sunset ended the meal as if someone had scripted this whole affair.

As I type this, our friends are back on the road, and life is back to whatever we're calling normal. Fantastic weekend overall, better than I could have hoped. And yes, I made them a playlist because I can't help myself.
slipjig3: (because of reasons)
Van Ryder Games: Hey!
Me: Hey yourself.
VRG: Lookee! Final Girl board game!
Me: Ugh, pass.
VRG: Solid horror themed content!
Me: Hard nope.
VRG: Designed specifically for solo play!
Me: [stops mid-syllable) ...I'm listening.
VRG: Infinitely replayable!
Me: I've heard that one before.
VRG: With expansion sets out the yin-yang!
Me: [scoots chair closer] Go on....
VRG: The packaging is also the game boards!
Me: Keep talking.
VRG: That you can mix and match!
Me: [audible whimpering noise]
VRG: And you can create custom cards right on our website!
Me: [carefully keeping hand away from wallet pocket in desperate attempt to retain some modicum of sensible control] Okay, hang on, expansion sets cost m-o-n-e-y.
VRG: Yep.
Me: So I—
VRG: Under 20 bucks.
Me: ...fuck. [whips out debit card Annie Oakley-style]
VRG: Told ya.
Me: I'm getting ONE. Base set and one—ONE—scenario. Period. I mean, I don't know if I'm even going to like th—

[45 minutes later]

Me: [screaming into phone] WELL THEN WHO DOES BUY BLACK MARKET KIDNEYS? I HAVE NEEDS.


(Seriously, I was not expecting to go all in on this.)
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1) Another rainy morning, another walk denied, boo and fie and a pox upon it all, even though the rain and the high temp in the mid-70s are both still nice.

2) No idea what I'm having for breakfast today. We're out of bagels, we're out of avocados for smushing on toast, and I've come to the conclusion that cereal is not actually a food because I end up carb crashing an hour and a half later. We do, however, have healthy-brand Oreos, so....

3) I took a Klonopin yesterday afternoon to see if it would help the anxiety-related lightheadedness. It, shall we say, did not: I stood up, I turned left, the room turned right, I sat down again, and long story short we ordered from Portland Pie instead of me making chicken florentine pasta as planned because knives and I were not going to get along. Chalk one up for science.

4) I keep saying I'm going to write at length about the YouTube channel here, and I never do. I also keep saying I'm going to make a new video for the YouTube channel, and ditto. I'm sensing a correlation.

5) Just realized I never made coffee this morning. If you'll excuse me....
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So let me tell you about my morning.

I was up at the crack of dawn, very much nonconsensually. I work from home most days, a literal "roll out of bed, log on in my boxers" affair, but that usually gets scuttled by Marlowe the Buttface Cat, who's old and cranky and would be yelling at us kids to get off his lawn if he had one, and likes to inform us in no uncertain terms that it is no longer fully dark outside. Today he had a legitimate grievance—his feeder needed refilling—but no matter, we were up, we did not murder the cat, away we go.

[personal profile] hypnagogie did the Lord's work by making coffee (Jim's, brand based out of Massachusetts, medium roast), and I exercised self-care with a sesame bagel with plain cream cheese, toasted because I'm not a monster. Most mornings we'd be out for our daily walk right about now, a habit we sometimes lapse on but which has truly proved life-altering since we started last fall. Today, however, it's raining, which is bad news / good news, no walk but ye gods does a rainy morning set a baseline of contentment for the day. Always welcome. I'll need to venture out at lunchtime to get to therapy (an entry for another time), but for now I'm leaving my headphones off and absorbing as much calm as I can before I have to start the work that I'd prefer to ignore but seeing as how they're giving me money and all I guess I'll pay attention.

Which brings us to this entry. Andrea went down a wormhole of nostalgia reading her LJ, and she had the same thought I'd been having that maybe possibly it's time to start posting again—if not as a social activity, then as a theraputic one, a habit like coffee and bagels and morning walks. I spent a goodly amount of time trying to decide what to talk about, but in the end decided on this. Talking about nothing is liberating, and makes it easier when it's time to talk about more than nothing. My life is big and simple and complicated and joyous and hard, as lives tend to be, and I intend to talk about a lot of it. For now, though:

Good morning! How are you doing today?
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I mostly work from home these days, but on the odd days I hit the office (Mondays, usually) I've taken to scrolling old LJ entries during the slow bits, which results in being reminded of things I'd utterly forgotten, often for good reason. Things like, oh, off the top of my head, that time back in 2009 when for reasons nonapparent I individually named each of my toes:

Right Big Toe: Zsigmond
Right Second Toe: Lord Merseycrumpet
Right Third Toe: Mathilda
Right Fourth Toe: Gary Krimble
Right Pinky Toe: Li'l Reggie

Left Big Toe: Avner Gray
Left Second Toe: Excelsior
Left Third Toe: Genevieve
Left Fourth Toe: Frankie the Rat
Left Pinky Toe: Dweezil

If it weren't immediately obvious, my job is not especially interesting. How's everyone doing?
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Many thanks to everyone who submitted questions in response to this AMA poll! In gratitude, the following answers:

Do you think we'll actually get to meet?
Ye gods, I hope so! That's still the most surreal aspect about the LiveJournal fever dream: the realization that I've still never seen so many of my dearest friends face to face. We'll make it happen one way or the other.

A bird drops a wad of cash into your lap. It's about $500. What do you buy for yourself?
That's a great amount for this particular question, enough for a splurge but not enough to be either overly extravagant or overly pragmatic. Assuming I don't do something stupid like paying off a credit card or something, I would probably opt for something unsurprising, starting with one of the obscenely large Criterion box sets like the complete Agnes Varda or the Godzilla collection. Maybe a big chunk of board game or a decent video camera. A lot of wibbling either way, I suspect.

Have you read Wylding Hall by Elizabeth Hand?
I have not! I have done a couple of her other titles, though, and loved them, so I'm betting this would be in my wheelhouse.

Do you ever think you'd ever do the radio show host thing again?
I would LOVE to do more radio! I've been toying with thoughts about that Spotify service that lets you use build podcasts around their music library, but it would take more research (doable) and more time (less doable at the moment, albeit not impossible). I do know the structure of the show I'd like to do, though, which I may discuss at another time.

Are you using the beta (soon to be prime time) Dreamwidth update form yet? Do you have Opinions? Have you rearranged it to your liking?
Haven't even touched it, probably should. What are your thoughts on it? Good/bad/indifferent?

You've had a lot of pets (or at least, lived with them) over the years. Has any one in particular bonded with you as a kind of "soul pet" or familiar?
Okay, so here's what might be a failing of mine: I just don't bond with pets. I mean, yes, I love them, I like having them around, but I can't think of a single animal from my past that I genuinely miss. I don't know why.

If you have any more questions, please feel free to ask!
slipjig3: (homesick blues)
A couple of friends on Facebook shared ask-me-anything posts, but since that's an LJ thing and not an FB thing (responses kept secret):

Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: Just the Poll Creator, participants: 6

Ask me anything!

Tell me anything!

Do you like clicking radio buttons?

Why, yes! Yes, I do!
2 (33.3%)

I hate it. I am suffering doing this right now. You're mean.
0 (0.0%)

Secret option #3
4 (66.7%)

slipjig3: (phrenology)
I've been meaning to cobble together a post about my YouTube channel, and since the "I've been meaning to" phase has lasted a year and a half at this point: Hey! I have a YouTube channel! It's called Reckoned Opinions (here, have yourself a link), and it's devoted to pop culture top ten lists and that kind of thing—not exactly trailblazing, but I'm having a blast and doing work I'm pleased with and finally developing something resembling a viewership, so I'll take it. I'm currently working on a new epic-lite supercut video, which means I'm mustache-deep in Project Mode, juggling Post-Its and paper clips and (no exaggeration) 850 index cards in an effort to get all the bits and pieces cobbled together in some semblance of order. It also means that I intermittently want to delete all of my online accounts and either crawl under a rock, take up goat herding, or both.

Don't get me wrong, it's still fun for the most part, but oh fragrant gods does my brain hurt. It's the organizational process that's doing me in; I'm trying something different with the editing, and it's putting me in red string on the bulletin board territory. My executive functioning can be somewhat damaged on the best of days, and right now I'm asking it to dance on a sprained ankle. This in turn bleeds over into life away from Adobe Premiere, because this sort of brain-weary that makes me misplace the second halves of sentences before I'm done with the first halves. And that, in turn, pokes me in the place in my psyche that makes me emotionally puny when I'm stressed or sleep deprived. The other day I asked Andrea about dinner, she texted back "I thought we'd decided that," and because I couldn't remember that earlier conversation I tripped a low-level meltdown, not collapse so much as operational weirdness.

So, intentional self-care it is. I did a video a few months ago presenting every title in the Criterion Collection (1,190 of them, at the time), a project that turned out well but at the cost of my life being devoured like that hard-boiled egg in Angel Heart for three whole weeks. The current project is similar, only with a side of conspiracy theorist / four-dimensional chess player action, so I'm doing my best to maintain a healthy and reasonable level of obsession. More breaks, more stretching, more Things That Are Not That Thing. Also, I'm giving myself permission to take too long to complete it, because deadlines make the baby Jesus cry. I think it's going to be amazing once it's done, and I'm hoping I'll be upright enough to appreciate it once I get there.

(Relatedly, I'm at the office today, and the index cards are at home. I'm not saying that's why I'm on DW today after a yearlong absence, but I'm not not saying that. Also, I missed you guys.)
slipjig3: (Default)
Note to self: "I'll post something once X is done, so I can talk about that" translates out to "I'll feel guilty about not posting, then use X as an excuse, then use that excuse to stress out about X, until I finally get done with X and then neglect to post anyway." D-minus, do not recommend.

And no, not talking about X in this post either even though it's done because my brain cell count is in the yellow zone at the moment and self-promotion is hard. (Spoiler: X is my latest YouTube video. Big long post about the channel to follow. Have a link to hold you over.)

Anyway.

Weekend before last, I went to an informal get-together (like, "in a literal barn" level of informal) of the Maine Songwriters Association, a group I talked a bit about not too long ago. I think this was literally the first time I'd left the house for the purpose of meeting people since I moved here, not counting any out-of-state excursions, so this was a mild flavor of terrifying, especially since there were mics set up for some low-stakes performance which OH GODS I HAVEN'T DONE THIS IN EONS I'LL JUST HIDE BEHIND THESE HAY BALES NOW IF YOU DON'T MIND. I did two songs that none of you have heard: "Unfamiliar Sky," which I wrote at the beginning of COVID about oh what ever so much fun depersonalization-flavor anxiety attacks can be, and a brand new reworking of "Underneath the Fold," a noir-based thing I wrote like six years ago that never quite worked until a nip-tuck of the lyrics and a crumple-toss-start-over of the music. They both went over well, F-bomb and all. (Me: "Will anyone be upset if I drop an F-bomb?" Woman in crowd: "Fuck, no!" My people.) Really nice crowd, and I was strongly encouraged to get something in for the 2022 songwriting contest whose deadline is Saturday, which means I'm currently overthinking-slash-option-locking on which song to record. I'll be over here wibbling if anyone needs me.

Other than that, not a whole helluva lot of stuff going on. Summer plods on with only one air conditioner installed because as long as the master bedroom is cool enough at night we haven't really seen a reason to put up the other two. (Have I mentioned that I love Maine?) I have some crossword-y stuff that I'm working on and another video that I'm planning and sore shoulders and allergies that Claritin continues to allow past the velvet ropes of my head, so all in all I'd say all is well. I'm actually at the office today, and there's a chicken sandwich awaiting me at home, so I'm going to stretch, feign industry for a half-hour and get the fnork out of here. If I've missed anything important here in DW Land, please let me know. Stay buoyant, all.

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